Am I a Mum?

Am I a Mum?

Our magnolia

How can I be a Mum, I couldn't protect my baby?
I can't get to know my baby.
No one will know that I am a Mum.
What identity do I have now?

Will people forget that my baby died?
Will I forget? I don't want to forget.
Will people expect me to get over this in a week?
Why did my baby die?

Is this going to happen again?
"It's so common" people say - that doesn't help
That makes me feel worse to know that others are going through this
That it's so common it might happen again.

The biggest question for me though is Am I a Mum?