I have felt my body being more out of control than ever in the past week or so. I can not begin to describe how difficult it has been to keep going on our baby journey rather than return to the medication in order to control the pain, fatigue and inflammation. Before I came off my medication I really felt that I was strong enough to do this and knew that it would be hard, but never imagined that it would be just how hard it is. However bad this is I know that in my heart I won't go back to the medication but it is making me question how we could ever have more than one child. We will cross that bridge when it comes to it!
I have found distraction very helpful in the darkest moments and we've been prematurely talking about baby names and how we would like the nursery. I think in a normal situation without dealing with a severe chronic illness without medication we would never be planning so far ahead but to keep me focused, it certainly is helping.
I'm currently in the same position. My eyes teared up, as I read your post. I developed arthritis after my first child was born. I stopped my medications a few days ago and already I feel terrible. I'm scared of what it will be like when I'm full term pregnant. How will I take care of a toddler and cope with my pain? I never wanted my child to be an only child and thats why I'm trying to have another. Ideally I want atleast 2 more, but I dont know how I will manage. God knows best and all I have is my faith in him. Thank you for writing this blog. There is so little first hand information out there for people like us.
ReplyDeleteBecks, I feel the same as you do. The worry of how on earth am I going to manage is at the forefront of my mind. Have you been able to start on some steroids to try and get you through?
DeleteBecks, I feel the same as you do. The worry of how on earth am I going to manage is at the forefront of my mind. Have you been able to start on some steroids to try and get you through?
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